Tuesday, February 9, 2010


This is a matter of saving a life.
Words cannot truly emphasize enough how important this is.

Here's the short version:

I have this friend. And he recently introduced me to a situation that has been going on with another one of his friends. It's not good. REALLY not good. This girl has not only lost both her parents (within the last two years), but is also a current victim of physical and sexual abuse. She is completely alone where she is. No friends, family, no one. She is struggling with depression, cutting, addiction to prescription drugs, alcohol, and contemplating suicide.

Unfortunately, my friend is the only person she has to confide in.
We (my friend, I, and another close friend), have been trying to help her via the internet (AIM, e-mail).
Thing is this is getting bad. And fast. We need to intervene in a much more serious manner.
Recently, we came up with this idea.
We want to show her love. True love. To show her that her life matters. That there is hope. That we can help. That God loves her and has a plan for her life.
It might help you understand if you read the TWLOHA story (http://www.twloha.com/vision) ; it is similar to what we would like to do for her.

Here's the deal: We need to raise money for one round trip plane ticket.
My friend is the only person she truly trusts.
We need to get him here. That is the only way she would be willing to come meet us here.
Once he is here, we would pick her up from o'hare.
For a week or more we are going to love her, care for her, get her out of the horrible situation she's in,
and possibly check her into rehab.

We need help though.
My friend has set up a craigslist ad.
Please visit this link: http://bellingham.craigslist.org/for/1592570061.html
There is more info there.
If you can help at all, please send me a message or send him an e-mail.
OR email : lsbethechange@gmail.com, him or I will respond with more info.

Thank you all for taking this seriously.
And thank you for any help you can provide.
Prayers are always needed and welcome.


Saturday, January 30, 2010

I wrote this a long time ago. But a lot of it is still true in my heart.

I have so much love to give.
I'm willing to give it all away.
The only question I have is,
who is going to give all their love to me?
Is there room for both of us?
Can we overcome?

Things go wrong every other day.
I don't like wanting to give up every other day.
It's a horrible feeling.
I always try my best to put you first.
Of all the humans on this earth, you are currently my favorite.
Can we make this work?
Is this meant to be?

Blurred images of my wedding day.
A dress. Flowers. A small ceremony.
But who is the groom?
Only God knows.
But for now, I'm praying every night it's you.

I've bottled up too much and soon it will all pour out.
Tears will hit the pillow like rain on concrete.
What have I done?
God, what have I done?
I don't deserve your forgiveness.
Are things supposed to be this way?
Is this part of your plan for me?
Why is it so hard for me to trust you?
You're all I have. I'll do whatever it takes.
Please...help me.
I'm scared for my well being.
Can I do this? I want to.
Will it work this time around? I hope so.

The world is eating away at us,
filling us with it's lies hidden as truths.
Flash your brights.
Open your eyes with me.
We can do this.
We can do this.
We can do this.

You're all I have.
Please don't leave me.
I don't know what to do anymore.
I'm so scared.
Go to bed, little girl.
His angels will protect you.
I promise.


Saturday, January 2, 2010

Full moon.

The moon looks beautiful tonight.
Let's invest in love.
Real love. Not just that romantic kind.
On this cold winter's night.
Let's hold hands and talk about our existence.
Look at that open sky.
Do you think God is here with us?
Do you think He chuckles when we do?
I think He does.
Let's lie in this open field and cuddle under a blanket.
Let's talk about how amazing it is that we're alive.
How thankful we are for all the good and the bad.
Because everything that happens, we can learn from.
Sometimes it may take days.
Sometimes years.
But it always works for the best.
I'm so grateful for the good. But especially the bad.
I love the feeling when I know I've learned something from my past.
Isn't it nice to know I love you?
There aren't many people I would give up so much for.
But you deserve the best.
Whether it's with me or not in the future, I'm just happy for the present.
Thank you for talking with me.
Listening to me.
And most of all, for caring about me.
Thank God for best friends.
I'm truly blessed.
And that's what my life is about right now.
As I lie in this open field.
On this cold winter's night.
Staring at the ravishing moon in all it's beauty.
With you.


Thursday, November 5, 2009


Can you hear me?
Do you hear the song I'm singing to you?
Every part of my soul is woven in those words
You do still love me, right?

Do you still believe in me?
Because I'm having trouble believing in myself
Am I still of worth?

I know you'll always love me
But the whispers in my head stab my thoughts with doubt
You're voice resonates as you say "goodbye..."

Fill me with life again
I want to live
I want to change the world
Will you hold on with me?
Will you make today a brighter day?

I want to sit with you in a field and talk for days
Gaze at the stars and see the sunrise
I don't want to let you go
Please don't go.

I'll be your friend as many days as there are stars
I'll love you to eternity
Will you love me?

I know I don't always make sense
But isn't there something kinda beautiful about that?

I wish you could see how I see
Feel how I feel
Love how I love.
Don't sit on the sidelines
Run with me.
We can make a difference
Just take hold of my hand.

Don't ever stop snapping the camera
These memories need to be kept
Otherwise they'll fade away
And I'm not sure I could handle that.

Don't forget me, ok?
I'm still here
In motion
I'll break if I stop
So I'll keep going.

My love is free.
My life is Yours.
Take it
Use me
Change me into something amazing.
For You.

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

Do you feel better now?

I feel sick to my stomach.
Why does this keep happening?
The words you speak are so convincing, but none are the truth.
Misconceptions grow and are revealed once my heart is already involved.
Does it make you feel smart to know you had me fooled?
Who can I depend on? Do I have anyone at all?
Don't speak if you can't back up your words. Don't lead if you don't want me to follow.
Do you realize what you've done?
Where did my heart go? There's a huge hole where it used to be.
I'm terrified. You took my home. And now I have nowhere to go.
Do you feel accomplished for leaving me homeless?
How long will this go on? Am I just not good enough?
What does it take for you to love me?
Everything seems pointless. They all know.
They laugh because they know. They know you had me and I fell for it.
Do you feel superior making me feel like an idiot?
Should I even open my mouth anymore?
Jesus, please come take me home. I feel suffocated on this earth.
I need to feel loved. I need to feel wanted. I need to feel like I belong.
Fill this void inside of me and take this pain away.
I'll walk this earth alone today, physically.
Their friendship isn't real. Sure, they can say it is. But I'm done falling for that.
Pick me up, God. Cause I can't do this on my own.
Hold me up today. For every step I take is one step away from falling on my face.
Do you feel better now?
Don't bother if you are just saying things to make me feel different.
I don't want different. I want the truth.
I want love. I want to be cared for.
But you can't be that person when nothing you say is real.
I must be insane to think I was special to you.
But I'm just another face in the crowd.
Lord, please just take me home. I want to go home.
There I'll find my heart. And gosh, do I miss it.
Bring me back to that place of comfort and peace.
Bring that warmth and love back.
Be forgiving cause I know I'm not perfect.
But I still love you. I always will.
And I thank God, because he is the one that loves me.
One day this will all go away. One day everything will be ok.
We can do this. I'll get through it.
You tell me I'm worth it and You are the only one I can trust.
Show them what love is.
Let's make this world a better place.
Bring back my heart. I want to give it to others.
We can do this.
Do you feel better now?

Thursday, July 2, 2009

Join the TWLOHA Team! :)

If you are a fan of this organization and believe in what they do, I would strongly encourage you to become a part of their team and spread the message they try to share with all people: You are not alone. We are by your side. <3

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Follow TWLOHA on Twitter!

I am very passionate about this organization. If you don't know much about them, check out TWLOHA.com. If you have a Twitter, feel free to follow them at http://twitter.com/twloha.